Oh fragile heart.

I love his simple ways to touch my heart.

I got an email from him. And I got teary eyed.

Below was what was attached in the email.

What a perfect morning.

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Stay Close, Don’t Go
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I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
Is it half empty or have I ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
But look through that
And you will see,
I'll do better, I know,
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
Don’t tell me I will make it on my own,
Don’t leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink till it dies
If you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
Amazed how I somehow managed to
Sweep you off of your feet girl,
Your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do.
But I'll do better, I know
Baby, I can do better.

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone will sink till it dies
if you leave me tonight.

And don't you know my heart is open, oh,
it's bringing on the fight,
and I've got this feeling,
that everything's alright,
and don't you see,
I'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight I'll wake up alone.

If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
don't tell me I will
make it on my own,
don't leave me tonight,
this heart of stone
will sink till it dies
if you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight

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Fall For You
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Best thing about tonight's that we’re not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying......
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core..

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep
And hold onto your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you’re asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

The Beautiful Ones

I luv this song... ;)

*Owh, no association to anyone. I simply just love it.*

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The Beautiful Ones

Baby, baby, baby
What's it gonna be?
Baby, baby, baby
Is it her or is it me?
Don't make me waste my time
Don't make me lose my mind baby

Baby, baby, baby
Can't you stay with me tonight?
Oh baby, baby, baby
Don't my kisses please you right?
You were so hard to find

The beautiful ones, they hurt you
Every time

Paint a perfect picture
Bring to life a vision in one's mind
The beautiful ones
Always smash the picture
Always every time

If I told you baby
That I was in love with you
Oh Baby, baby, baby
If we got married
Would that be cool?
You make me so confused
The beautiful ones
You always seems to lose

Baby, baby,
Baby, baby,
Baby, baby,
Baby,
What's it gonna be baby?

Do u want her?
Or do u want me?
Cause I want u
Said I want u
Tell me, babe
Do u want me?
I gotta know, I gotta know
Do u want me?

Baby, baby, baby
Listen 2 me
I may not know where I'm going babe
I said I may not know what I need
One thing, one thing's for certain baby
I know what I want, yeah
and it's to please u baby
please u, baby
I'm begging down on my knees
I want u
Yes I do

Built to last.

He said... Let's make this our new song...

This is why detaching is difficult.

This + 8 years of memories of love and friendship.

Or... Maybe its simply because I just don't want to detach.

*sigh*

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Built To Last

I’ve looked for love in stranger places
But never found someone like you
Someone who’s smart
Makes me feel I’ve been holding back
An now there’s nothing I can do

Cause this is real and this is good
It warms the inside just like it should
But most of all
Most of all it’s built to last
It’s built to last

All of our friends saw from the start
So why didn’t we believe it too?
Now look where we are
You’re in my heart now
And there’s no escaping it for you

Cause this is real and this is good
It warms the inside just like it should
But most of all
Most of all it’s built to last

Walking on the hills at night
With the fire works and candle light
You and I were meant to get love right

Cause this is real and this is good
It warms the inside just like it should
But most of all
Most of all it’s built to last

Cause you are the sun in my universe
Consider the best when we felt the worst
But most of all
Most of all
Most of all it’s built to last

i melt with you

Here's a thought...

How awesome it would feel to get those sweet, random i-love-you-written-on-a-napkin-while-sipping-hot-chocolate-over-a-breakfast-date, that he wrote while you weren't watching. And how utterly euphoric it would be if he picks up his guitar and sings to you songs like jason mraz's i melt with you, or dewa's larut or anything of the likes.

If only I was so lucky.

Lalalaaaaa :)

morning rain...

Hope. Deliberate. And insulting. Repulsive too.

Had a depressing night. Now a very depressing morning. And presumably a very very depressing day ahead.

I couldn't cry this one out. My ego won't let me.

Why is this even getting to me anyway?

*sigh*

I wonder if depression comes as a side effect of surgery?

That weak feeling in your tummy shooting up to the heart. Weak. It doesn't help that all the sad and depressing things that have been running through your mind manages to magnetize themselves together and make its way out, choosing the perfect time to emerge. To top that, a whole week off to contemplate on the always-so-difficult journey called life and to be depressed. Yeay.

I don't need another week off. I need to be doing something. I need some distraction.

I don't want to do the sit-alone-and-eat-a-whole-tub-of-ice-cream-while-crying-in-front-of-the-tv again.

Prelude to a Kiss

Prelude to a Kiss

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Sometimes I feel..... like I don't belong anywhere...

And it's gonna take.... so long for me to get to somewhere.........

Sometimes I feel so heavy hearted....but I can't explain cuz I'm so guarded...

But that's a lonely road to travel, and a heavy load to... bear....

And it's a long, long way to heaven but I gotta get there.....

Can you send me an angel...... to guide me....

Ku Mahu Kau Tahu

We were a lot of things. Young, happy, egotistical, angry, but above all that, in love. We were those things and more. Once upon a time.

What a perfect song he dedicated to me today. 

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Hujan - Ku Mahu Kau Tahu

tersudut termenung jauh

mengenangkan nasib kita

kita miliki separuh

berbentuk hati cinta namanya

walau kau jauh

ku sentiasa menunggu mu

pedih ku imbas kembali memori

walau kau jauh

ku berjanji kan terus tunggu

dipisah lautan pilu

ku mahu kau tahu

aku kan terus menunggu

jaga benar gambar ku dalam telefon bimbit mu

jangan pernah sekali kau buang

seperti cinta ini yang terbuku

akan bersemi jua

walau kau jauh

ku sentiasa menunggu mu

pedih ku imbas kembali memori

walau kau jauh

ku berjanji kan terus tunggu

dipisah lautan pilu

ku mahu kau tahu

aku kan terus menunggu

terus menunggu

kitakan bersatu

terus menunggu

ku mahu kau tahu

Ruang Rindu

So i haven't been writing for awhile. I guess i've been busy and i am now living with my sister who doesn't have an internet connection. Totally sucks i tell ya. 

Anyway, i have now officially transferred to Cyberjaya. Yeay. I got what i've been praying for. Things have been better. Emotion-wise that is. It's always good to be closer to home and away from psychos. Hehe. But... of all the joy... there's still a little crack in the wall.. (i know it's a funny metaphore to use.. but whatever.. my brain's lazy today..) There's still this little thing that bugs me from time to time. But it's ok. I'm getting used to it. Just as long as i can ignore it, i'm good. Let's hope there'll be no confrontation anytime soon. I need to enjoy being in a new place for awhile before some drama makes its appearance. 

Cyberjaya's not too bad so far. Except that the people at work don't socialize like they did in Penang. In other words, it's too freakin' quiet in the office i can hear myself breathe. -_- And some people will look at you when you laugh or talk. Like it's against the rules or a sin. But whatever. 

Life's treating me good so far. Gotta stop worrying about the little things and savor the joy.

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Oh, a song for a certain someone.

Ruang Rindu

Di daun yang ikut mengalir lembut

Terbawa sungai ke ujung mata

Dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta

Menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada

Jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia

Terasa hangat oh didalam hati

Kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu

Tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi
Tak pernah kuragu dan slalu kuingat

Kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat

Ku saat itu takut mencari makna

Tumbuhkan rasa yg sesakkan dada
Kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja

Semua kutrima apa adanya

Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam

Di ruang rindu kita bertemu

Leave My Mind

Please. 

Leave my mind.

If i had a choice, I'd make you leave my mind.

"but ******.. i love u.. in a.. really really big..."

"... but ******.. i love u.. in a.. really really big, pretend to like your taste of music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window.. unfortunate way that makes me hate you-love you.."

Meredith said it.. in grey's anatomy.. so i'm quoting her.. don't ask me why..

Today sucks..

How to save a life..

Step one you say we need to talk

He walks you say sit down it's just a talk

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right

As he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best

Cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defense

Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you've told him all along

And pray to God he hears you

And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things

He will admit to everything

Or he'll say he's just not the same

And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

How to save a life

Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want

Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want
 

Good times for a change

See, the luck I've had

Can make a good man

Turn bad

So please please please

Let me, let me, let me

Let me get what I want

This time

Haven't had a dream in a long time

See the life I've had

Can make a good man bad

So for once in my life

Let me get what I want

Lord knows, it would be the first time

Lord knows, it would be the first time